Web Date 03-25-2006

Thanks all for a ton of email about my friend. Sorry, I do read them but it's impossible for me to answer to you all. So this my big hug to you for taking the time to send me condolence email.

I cancelled my show for the leather event this weekend. They were very nice about it. I just don't have it in me to do a show like that with all this going on.

You see, my buddy and I were planning to open a Japanese style bed and breakfast on the Big Island of Hawaii. We were going to pack up and go at the first sign our titties begin to sag. The B&B was going to be very minimal with lots of bamboo... Second as a meditation retreat... Large wooden hot tub with the nudity required rule. I was going to make all the dishes for the B&B since I studied Raku in college after I switched my major from accounting to art.

Oh sweet dreams....

Web Date 03-15-2006

My only best friend passed away... Close to 20 years of magical memories. Of all the wild and crazy things I've done, he was right there with me. We gave each other strength. We said no thank you to the world around us and created our own. Now I'm left with a big hole in my soul. I was fortunate enough to tell him how I felt about him over the holidays and he did the same.

Please bear with me through this difficult time. And take time out to tell your special someone how much you care. Life is so fleeting...

Web Date 03-09-2006

Damn, it's already March. I just can't keep up anymore.

Thank you all for the nice email about me in the March Playgirl Issue. Here's a little story. There's this really hot stud at my gym. We worked out late at night the same time everyday. He always wore a baseball cap and very aloof. I thought he had a bit of an attitude. I told a gym buddy of mine and he agreed but thought maybe the stud was straight.

Last week, it was closing time at the gym and we found ourselves alone in the lockerroom... right next to each other. Could you f'n believe it? Don't know why but I was nervous and shaken a little. There was about 3 long minutes of awkward silence. Out of the blue he said hi and introduced himself. Then he said, "Is that you some magazine?... The pictures don't do you justice." He smiled with the deepest green eyes.

It took me a beat to figure out that it was a compliment. See, I'm not that bright. Thank god he didn't say things like, "When were those pictures taken? Back in the 70s?"

It turned he was just really shy and really nice also. Believe it or not, I'm quite shy myself. Life is so strange and funny.