Manduka Pro Yoga Mat

Day 3 of my 6 months sabbatical:

I’ve decided to take up yoga in my free time. Lifting weights all these years, I feel I need to change my body as I’m getting older. I want that slim look with lots of flexibility. Yoga is the perfect choice.

I got a groupon for 20 sessions of Bikram yoga for $25. What a great deal so I decided to go for it. Bikram yoga is 26 postures sequence selected and developed by Bikram Choudhury from Hatha Yoga. So, you do 26 poses in 105F degrees and about 40% humidity. Not sure about the heat but I’ll give it try.

First I need to buy a yoga mat and accessories. I ended up spending about 4 hours looking at mats. Well the best ones are the Manduka and Jade mats. Since all the reviewers say the Manduka is the Rolls Royce of yoga mats, I just had to get it. I got the Manduka Black Mat PRO Yoga Mat and Manduka Go Steady 2.0 Yoga Bag on Amazon. The Pro Yoga mat is amazing and I loved it but it’s a bit heavy to cart around town. I suggest you get the Manduka PROlite Travel Yoga Mat. It’s lighter and easy to roll up. I’m so excited about doing new things! Stay tuned…

x Van


Van Darkolme - Sabbatical - yoga

6 Months Sabbatical 3/1/2015 – 9/30/2015

Day 1 of my 6 months sabbatical:

Hello, I’ve been making content for since April 2008. That’s 156 movies a year. There’s only 365 days in a year. That means I have to make a movie every other day. I loved it but it was exhausting. I was ready for a sabbatical 2 years ago. LOL. I championed on as long as I could. Now, I can no more. I think it’s fair. Lots of my content is around on sexm and other sites these days, anyway! Of course there’s a lot of fear lurking around me. Not from me mind you, but from the people around me. What are you going to do? How are you going to pay your bills? What if they don’t want you back? Do you know you are throwing a lot of money away?

Listening to the little voice inside

Following the little voice inside me, I’ve gotten by splendidly. It’s been telling me to stop for a long time. Now that I’m not busy setting up for shoots and dealing with the corporate porn world (Yes, corporate porn world. It’s an actual corporation and the product is BDSM porn. There are meetings, politics, managing employees, sales revenues, marketing, web traffic, competitions, etc.), I can take the time and listen to that voice inside me. It will tell me what to do. One thing that I’m certain, whatever it is, it will be artistic :) Even as artistic as some cartoon porn at

The company is a great place to work and I’ve made great friends there. I need to take the time now just to breathe. Don’t want to grind away my life and wonder where it all went at the age of 70. There are a lot of other fantastic companies that make some truly captivating content, I’m thinking of of course. They really set new standards for the industry.

X Van

Folsom Street Fair 2014