Lands End, Peter Berlin and the Lost Art of Cock Sucking

2 month, 15 days of my 6 months sabbatical:

I’m getting ready to leave for Europe. London:5/22-5/24 ~ Istanbul:5/25-5/31 ~ Barcelona: 5/31-6/3 ~ Madrid:6/3-6/6 ~ Paris:6/6-6/12. I’m traveling on my own and I’m terrible with directions, so wish me luck:) PS: I would love tour guide in Europe!

You may wonder what I’ve been doing in my spare time. Well, I bought an electric bike and a bike trailer for my boys (2 Westies). I am also doing a lot of home repairs and going to Home Depot pretty much everyday.

As for fun, well.. I’ve been receiving some terrible blowjobs. 20 years ago as a young horny stud, I could always count on a middle age dude to give me mind blowing head. Prove me wrong but this generation of middle age dudes today can’t give decent head if their lives depend on it. How can I describe it… It’s robotic. The same movement over and over again. There’s no imagination. No passion to it. They are all impatient and eager to reach to cumming part. They want that cum so badly that they forgot the joy of cock sucking. To quote Ralph Waldo Emerson, “Life is a Journey, Not a Destination.”

That reminds me of the good old days of cruising at Lands End near the Golden Gate Bridge. I used to spend an entire weekend there. Sadly, Lands End has fallen into the sea when I visited a few years ago. Yes, before the internet there’s cruising. This place had tons of trails, trees and bushes. I would make sure the area was free of poison ivy, flattened down the vegetation 4ftX 6ft near a trail, tossed down a blanket and made it my little “condo” for the day. I rolled around naked in the sun and sheltered from the strong sea breezes. I ran into Peter Berlin a lot there. I believe he was a few decades my senior. He ran around the trails covered in baby oil –  in his mesh underwear/bikini with a cockring which created a constant semi hardon. By evolution and and chance, we unintentionally developed a symbiotic relationship. Peter is German with blond hair and I’m the opposite of that. We would hang out about 15ft apart. If someone was into Peter, I would wait for things to heat up and then slowly moved in. And if someone into talk dark types like myself, Peter would pounce when  the stud and I were both hard and lost in a hot steamy session.

Speaking of hot steamy sessions, I’ve been recognized a lot lately while having fun. I’m not going to tell you where but I think you have some ideas. Here’s an example from last week. I got a dude blowing me and two other dudes sucking on my nipples. While stroking a hard cock in each hand and nearly close to ecstasy, I heard someone shouted out loud, “YOU’RE VAN AREN’T YA? I LOVE YOUR VIDEOS. I’M A HUGE FAN!!!….. (wait for it… wait for it)… WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!!!!” That killed my boner. There’s noting like being pointed out in a group where everyone supposed to be anonymous. Here’s a rule of thumb people. Please don’t speak to me when I have my cock out :)



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Kink 2013 Documentary – Netflix

1 month, 20 days of my 6 months sabbatical:

Gosh, time is moving so fast. I’ve been binge watching all these series on Netflix and Amazon Prime: Turn, Daredevil, The Paradise, Mr. Selfridge, Downton Abbey, Sherlock, Upstairs Downstairs. I can go through an entire season in one day… so sad. I saw Charlie Cox in Downton Abbey and The Theory of Everything. He is so sexy to me. And when I found out  that he’s in Daredevil, I’m hooked!

Speaking of Netflix, the Kink 2013 Documentary is now streaming on Netflix. James Franco produced it and Christina Voros directed. I was in the documentary a lot and had a chance to attend the Sundance Film Festival 2013. (See photo below – James Franco is in the middle and I’m in the end) Sundance was amazing and I get to rub elbows with the stars.  Check it out and please give me your feedback :)

x Van




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Straight For Pay

Day 28 of my 6 months sabbatical:

This Mid-May I will be going to Europe for a month. I get to lie horizontal on Virgin Atlantic to London. Hanging around SoHo London for a couple of days, then jump on Turkish Air to Istanbul for a week. I can’t wait to immerse myself into the hot steamy Turkish bath. Then, back on Turkish Air to Barcelona and Madrid. I’ve never been to Spain so that will be exciting. After having my fill with sexy hairy spanish studs, I will jump on the train to Paris. Yes, Paris… my favorite city in the world. I’m staying there for a week in Le Marais district. I’m sure by then my butthole is begging to come home. I will jump on the Eurostar train… going through the chunnel and back to London. I will be in London for just a day then lie horizontal on the Virgin Atlantic back to San Francisco.

The trip is costly so I decided to take on some rigging jobs at Kink’s Sex and Submission website. I tied up women for their shoots and it was different and a lot of fun. Tying up women is much different than tying up men. Their bodies are smaller, especially in the shoulders, and they are more squishy, where the men surfaces are harder. So it’s easier to tie up men because tying up women is like tying up a pillow. I hope I don’t get hate mail:) BUT! I think the woman’s body is more esthetically pleasing than men. I do appreciate their beauty.

x Van

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Naked Yoga for Men

Day 17 of my 6 months sabbatical:

After about 2 weeks of Bikram Hot Yoga, I’m getting used to the heat. I’ve been doing 3 sessions per week and I lost a couple of pounds. Feeling good about myself, I decided to tryout Naked Yoga for Men ( The instructor’s name is Ken and he’s really cute. Right away someone recognized me so I was feeling a bit exposed. It’s hard to believe but I’m a bit shy. I’m thinking this naked yoga thing is good for getting over my shyness.  My BFF Duncan said it best… “Van, ya borderline shy/wild.” It’s true. I’m mostly shy in real life and wild when I’m “on stage”.

Okay, back to yoga. The space was really nice and clean. 16 guys showed up and they were all different shapes, ages and colors. One guy stood out. He’s in his 20s with dark hair. He got this San Fran hip haircut that’s really short on the sides. He was in the very front row and I was in back of the class. Everyone took their clothes off nonchalantly while carrying on conversations. Most of them knew each other. We began our stretching and breathing. I had to glance at my 20 something year old stud during the bend over positions and I enjoyed seeing his low dangling balls tremendously. He’s the type that doesn’t know he’s hot and I liked that. The stud has this lean body, slim waist, thick thighs, firm protruding ass and a nice bushy cock. PerF’nFection!!!

I was too busy discreetly looking at him and forgot about my shyness. I learned that as I moved around a lot, my dick shrunk into nothingness. Oh well… and I was comforted by the fact that the same thing happened to half the class… not that I was spending my time looking at everyone’s dick… just one particular dick, mind you.  The funny thing is that after about 10-15 minutes or so, I’m pretty much got my fill of the 20 something stud and was able to focus on the yoga. The nakedness around me had morphed into something else.  The newness of seeing and appreciating naked beings as they are. It’s a beautiful thing.  The entire session is nice but I feel I get more of a workout with Bikram Hot Yoga. Also, I have to get used to the om chanting with out giggling. I decided to do 2 Bikram, 1 naked yoga and 1 light weight workout per week. Stay tuned…

x Van



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